I am having a very rough day and it started at 3:30 in the morning. My daughter was screaming because she woke up so I pulled myself from my sleep to get her and bring her to my bed. She wanted to play but I told her it was time to sleep.
I laid back down, but I never felt like I was asleep. Well the next thing I knew my room was way darker than it was before. I was staring at my phone and as it should be the screen was black and white (bedtime mode). There was a call but I didn’t see a name or number just a timer. When I went to talk my voice was not there. It was as if I were choking. I felt like I was dying.
To make matters worse, I turned my stiff neck in the direction to my daughter was supposed to be but she was not there. I tried to move to check the floor, but I couldn’t move from the spot I was in. I started trying to scream at my phone again hoping it was someone I knew but nothing. I made no noises and whoever was on the other side sounded like weird animal or an alien. I started thinking “this is a nightmare” over and over until it was clear “omg this IS a nightmare.” I tried to wake myself, but it wasn’t happening.
When I finally woke up I popped up like jack in a box and I immediately checked for my daughter. She was there and I was relieved. I thought that was the end of it, but it wasn’t. When I fell back asleep it was the same fucking nightmare and it took forever to wake up again. So I decided I wouldn’t sleep, but I was struggling to stay awake and even if my eyes closed for a moment, I was sucked right back into that nightmare.
So today my anxiety is at 10000%.
P.S. thus post is from 4 days ago but it wouldn’t let me post.
To add to post. I ended up taking anxiety medicine that day. I had a panic attack out of the blue at my work desk so figured I’d clock out, but then a second more severe panic attack took over and I ended up calling 911 to help me.