Therapist Cry's While Listening to Wings of Maria Pt 1 and 2 by Tool

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10000 days part II is so freaking great. song gives me chills everytime. I’m sorry about your grandma.

you gotta do the research when it comes to Maynard / tool, all his songs have some really really deep personal meaning.

damn, you did do these also. love the channel so far, just found it.

Maynard James Keenan spread his mother’s ashes in his wine vineyard. After the death of his mother, Judith Marie, in 2003, he scattered her ashes across one of his vineyards located in Northern Arizona. This act was part of his tribute to her memory, and he later named a Cabernet Sauvignon wine “Nagual del Judith” in her honor.

Is not the 10,000 days the time spent in purgatory

Uggh…this song. 30 seconds in and my chest is already starting to tighten and my eyes well up.

Relationships with mothers can be complicated. I’m 50. My relationship with my mother is, at least. To me, just birthing your child isn’t anywhere near enough. Yes, thank you, Mom, for that delivery room battle, for which I am and will always be eternally grateful…but why did you find it so necessary to be the gargantuan asshole you were everyday as I grew to be the solid man I am today?
Sure, now that age has drastically softened your disposition, you are actually the loveable person now that you refuse to be for 40 years. I am so happy for you that you have turned your corner, but does that mean it’s ok for your acidic motherly behavior towards me for all those years? Should we simply just forget about it? I mean, I certainly can’t, and it is of my opinion that we will never move forward and enjoy your happier, new found disposition together until you address, explain and atone for your years of parental sins and turmoil you caused. I forgive you. I did years ago. But, my glass of forgiveness is only half full. You have the responsibility to fill that glass up on your own. It is a fulfillment only you can complete. Like an addict who wants to get clean, only you can do this. But, I’m afraid that the sad truth is that you don’t even see this task that’s in front of you. Therefore, I don’t believe the glass will sit in front of you, forever half empty. And it’s bullshit that that’s how it will stay. Know that I love you., but also know that this angers me. We never will be as great as we could be, should be, and you will soon depart this life leaving such an easy, obvious task incomplete and your failure here leaves me feeling ripped off. I pay that God gives you the courage and site to fix this. I love you, Mom.

See… complicated…

How am I just finding your channel???

My Grandfather died a few months after this album was released. First death of someone that I was so close with. I was so mad and sad and didn’t understand why it hurt so much. I listened to wings 1 & 2 non stop. Anytime I listen to it I think of him. Funny how music can help us through hard times.

Please do One More Light by Linkin Park

Yeah this song will do that to you. I am so glad Maynard’s black magic is having such an illuminating effect on you boo.

:slight_smile:

Now go listen to some Skinny Puppy; Dax Riggs and The Cure for more tears

but hey, check out Gojira, they have a lot of meaningful lyrics, e.g Sphinx. Or Global Warming, but rerecorded version from Silver Cord Studio, it hits musically somehow much harder then original record

say whatever you want 10k days is one of best tool albums

Constance by Spiritbox…

Check out brutal truth’s “get a therapist”

The Spiritual Path that Tool as a band follows is the Baul Tradition of Tantric Buddhism. RIP Lee, Yogi R,k . I encourage your adventurous nature into their music. It has way more spiritual significance than some even realize.

First time in a very long time I aloud myself to feel vulnerable was to this song. In July of 2016 I watched my grandmother stop breathing and pass away warm and comfortable in her bed, was expected because she was sick and I volunteered to sit with her so she wouldn’t be alone even though she was sedated. At her funeral I was beside myself and lost majority of my composure. 10 months later in May of 2017 I watched my brother seize on a gurney, turn purple and die in front of me. Never have I felt more helpless in my entire life, was as close to a nightmare as I could reference it. Eventually the loss consumed me and drove a wedge in between my wife and I to the point it destroyed my marriage and we ended up separating and divorcing, leaving everything in pieces. Now about 90% of my days are emotionless and bitter. I constantly relive the day at the hospital and picture the last image I have in my head of my brother. I can’t listen to certain songs due to the trigger that follows and I’m at a loss as to where to turn at this point. I understand loss is apart of life but at what point does the numbness go away assuming it does? I’ve considered suicide, but I’m not sure I’m ready to commit to that yet. It’s hard not to consider because of the feeling of bein dead already.

I don’t think I can read the comments but I’m so sorry the loss.

15:15 Right there! That’s what music is about! Those words hit so hard because of the connection you were able to make with it. Music connects us all in some way at some point. Says a lot about Maynard’s lyric writing too. That man has some powerful words to say and they can hit hard if you resonate with what he’s trying to say.