my dad suffered from alot of mental health issue, among then paranoid schizophrenia. in the summer of 2013 he fled under the belief that he was being followed by a criminal of some sort, despite our best efforts and the aid of mental health services we were not able to stop him… i was the last person to see him and couldnt stop him… we lost him in his haste to leave. in september of 2013 he turned himself over to the police in another big city. he belived that they were corrupt but, tired of running, he decided to trust a nice detective who informed him no one was after him and that we were worried. they set him up with a mental health professional and put him in a hotel… that night he took all the pills he was given, broke the window with the toilet lid and jumped. i havent been the same since and this is one of the songs that helps me feel the guilt anger sadness and complex feelings that i cant express anywhere else… its hard to keep going sometimes, his suicide drove me down a dark path of depression and anxiety that i fight EVERYDAY to keep my head above the water… i just know i cant do the same thing to my kids that he did to me
This young man has helped me so much. Since i found him. Ive been ill for so long i cant remember life before i broke. But Ren is giving me my light and power back. I love this guy so fucking much. And i loce toure reactions to this genius.
This song always gets to me, but somehow, the idea/hope someone going through this can reach out via this channel for help hit me harder.
@heartsupport i stumbled upon your channel from my love of music. I enjoy finding unknown talent before they find fame, and helping spread their message. I believe a true artist leaves a piece of themselves in their art, true passion. I have never come across a therapist with the passion you radiate. Ive been battling depression but even before it came into my life it has always been challenging to connect and converse with others, especially emotional problems. Ive been really struggling with keeping momentum and I know i should find help but ive been in the dark so long like NF i don’t know who I’d be if i were happy. Thank you for demonstrating that there are therapists that truly care and keep up the amazing work.
Ps: you should check out Falling in Reverse, two songs to get you started
Last Resort Reimagined
The drug in me is you reimagined
That is a little masterpiece! So good, TY
Symbolism - Bridge in the background is a tribute to Joe. Have you listened to the “Chapters” on Renmakesstuff channel yet? HIGHLY Recommend!
ive just found ren accidentally. it is both the best accident caused by youtube and felt like a car crash realizing all at once that i was glad someone understood but hated myself for being glad someone understands
I lost my wife to suicide 24 years ago - I love her just as much today as I did the day we said our “ I do’s “
She shot her self in the heart first , then she shot her self in the head - she did this because she thought I didn’t love her anymore because I cheated on her - there has been many times over the years I have wanted to take my own life , each time, I believe her spirit stops me, she is in my thoughts and heart every day, most every hour… I do blame myself, obviously- I don’t think I will ever follow through because I know she is strong, even after all these years but the pain will never leave- and truthfully, I don’t think I want it to- she was a beautiful light that shined on my life for a short time , but I can still feel her warmth- I don’t think I’m looking for any outside help - I just need to let out this feeling on your format , because I think my spirit heard you ask me to
Praise be to God…
You’ve gotta watch the lyric version, it hits so hard