Well I was gonna be jobless but I would have orientation at a job thinking in a few days interviews went really well almost had 2 jobs.
Unfortunately I’m still depressed but I’m sure things will be good, im not at the point where life is meaningless and questioning if I want to live or not it was so bad before.
When something bad happens memories of just being abused and beaten severely since I could remember being at the age of 2 until 18, there was freedom ever since I ended up going to a youth group I’m 25 now but I made friends and was open to a youth leader and they helped me, and the very next day I ended up livung with a pastor for 3 years but
Life was at its turn when I left over an agreement I didn’t fulfill going to this year program I went but didn’t think I needed it, I still believe I was right. I was there for 3 months it was suppose to be 12 months and I just felt home sick for the first time. And ended up going back home but on a bus for 28 hours it was so very lonely and then was met by the pastor with the rest of my belongings having to live with my grandmother. They couldn’t take of themselves my aunt and grandmother, they lived off the government and mice and rats where everywhere in the house I was staying at. I was dealing with it for 3 months…
Deep dark depression hit me when I realized I was rejected by my pastor and his family, and they were the only ones in my life that were good influences and after when he just dropped me off in the neighborhood I looked for old friends and they introduced drugs in my life and alcohol all kinds of things.
It was dark because I never wanted that kind of life and honestly was on my way to jump off a bridge I sat on the rocks and looked up to sky. Hopeless saying is this really it God, is this what this life really is. Just crying balling my eyes just about to get up and my closest friend randomly called me and he never calls he was excited about what God was doing in his life and I just was like honest I said what was going on. I told him I don’t want to live dude this life up until I was 21 just wasn’t worth it anymore just talked to me picked me up to hangout at night.
Story doesn’t even end tho.