Lately in my life, I’ve been realizing a few characteristics about myself and it all depends on my situation or relationships with people in my life. I’m a sophomore in college. This month was the first time I was in a relationship with a male. I was open to the experience and everything. However, today was the day I decided to end things. He was so serious about me, but I wasn’t so sure if I wanted to be serious with him. I ended up hurting his feelings and mind you he liked me for about 3 years now. Now here is the part where it might not be normal. I didn’t care if I hurt his feelings. I had no remorse after hurting him. I was so happy when it was over and literally I felt free. But after this experience it made me realize what if I’m incapable of loving someone romantically? This thought is starting to scare me, but I don’t know what to do. What I do know is that I love my friends and family. The way I reacted to the end of a relationship idk if that’s normal. Feeling overly happy and having no remorse. If this relationship continued, he would’ve been emotionally manipulated and every time he would open up to me, I wouldn’t know how to respond because I would not care. I don’t know if this ever happened to someone else.
Btw this is my first time using this site and honestly I hope it helps my mental health because just by writing this honestly felt good.