UPDATE: I’m okay
I’ve given my heart to everyone who needed a little bit of love. But I always got it back with an extra scratch or crack. I’ve done everything in my power to make everyone happy. But even that is something I’m not able to do anymore. I’m too tired. Tired of helping people. Tired of trying to make myself happy again and trying to be healthy. It’s too much.
There are a lot of people around me that broke my soul. More than there were people who actually cared. I know you guys care. You don’t have to tell me that. But there are a lot of people out there that are still trying to break me. That will never stop.
Not only other people break me. I can blame myself too. My mind is playing tricks I can’t handle. I’m constantly fighting my own thought and it’s ripping me apart. So it’s not only the fault of other people, it’s mine too.
I tried to fix myself. But this broken girl can’t be fixed. This heart is too weak to go on. I’m too weak to go on.
I’m sorry I fuck everything up and I’m sorry for bothering you guys with it. I’m sorry I’m so weak and fucked up. I’m sorry for being so freaking complicated. I’m sorry.
It’s time for me to go.