Hey I just thank for all your comments about my last post, it help a lot and means a lot to me. Thank you all so much!!
However, I still dealing with same issue about I guess how I see myself. To honest, I know not a poser about my music taste. In someway, I think get attached these story of my music taste. I think we do it in way, it human nature try to be define by something. The think the problem really overthink it. In unhealthy way, cause beat myself up. But I think my Boarderline personality, I believe I hear that people that with BPD struggle identify. If you have BPD, that deal with this please message if you can, cause I feel that part of what dealing with.
I was skate park another, and whimp out on a trick. I was too scare to do it and bitch out. During time I think was having anxiety attack, it get so bad that can’t focus on the trick. Cause I did the trick before, but I’m afraid of getting hurt. Then my wise mind told hey you don’t have do this trick. I learn to let go of trying land every tricks.