(Un)lost (yes another The Maine song title)

So yesterday I had one of my worst days and fights with the urge to self injure- but I overcame it. I felt lonely to the point I was crying and yelling at myself forever- my thoughts came bombarding out of my brain all at once and I was left feeling numb and thinking that I had nobody because that’s how I truly felt. I felt pain like I hadn’t in a long time.

But I made it- and this Sunday will mark my 31st day self injury free which is the longest I have gone without self injury (at least that I can recall).

This morning I didn’t get out of bed until basically 12:00 pm and I thought that was going to be my day- laying in bed depressed- but it wasn’t. My dog came into my room and I don’t even know it was like something clicked and I felt so happy- and I looked out my front door and saw hummingbirds ( which are my favorite bird) and I was just happy. I thought that my day was going to go wasted- but it wasn’t. I actually ate vegetables today (what an achievement) and I ate relatively healthy (for the most part). I got more into Dwarf Planet and I am hoping to make more time for it come Monday, and maybe forge through it until I leave for Warped Tour and vacation time. I also got to play Overwatch with Dan and Casey and Kayla and Adam and Pales (sorry for all the ands) and I had a blast; I didn’t talk much (because push to talk) but you best bet your bottom dollar I was laughing my butt off ahah. It was great and made me so happy.

I also got to watch the HS livestream (well the creative encouragement part) and I just had a really nice time and it just made me even happier.

From all this- although yesterday was the worst day in a long time- I realize that it doesn’t have to be that way forever- and it doesn’t have to affect my whole week or month; that used to happen a lot- but I feel as though I am slowly growing out of it and it is nice to see improvement.

So, I just want you all to know that even though today may be a shit day- tomorrow may not be. Things will get better. It is possible. Hold fast.

With love,
Lyss (ur old pal Blurryface)


I’m so proud of you. You’ve come so far and fought so hard. You’re such an inspiration and light to this community. Keep moving forward - you got this <3

Hold fast


I love hearing your stories of success, @Lyss! Keep them coming! You’re strong and you’ll continue to conquer your demons. Show them who’s boss! :slight_smile: