Hello everyone, I want to preface this by thanking you all for your support the last 2 threads. It has been a great help to me.
Let me start by updating you guys on my last 2 posts. Starting with the first.
I feel more confident in the fact that I can find my passion, but I just need more self reflection and effort toward that. As per the endless cycle of wake, internet, and sleep; while it still happens I’ve been trying to cut back on it. Doing things like reading, texting friends, and the like, but finding a hobby is still something I struggle with. Things with my family haven’t got much better, but I find that I worry less about whether we are distant or not.
As per the second, we have a few things to go through. School has not gotten any better. It still sucks. We have a new teacher who has very lgbt-phobic views, and the administration does not listen to its students. The homework is always too much and the teachers never communicate. Despite all of this, I still get up and do whats required of me, its interesting to see how far one thinks they can go, then their body and mind proves them wrong by going 5 more miles. I still miss the people that left, but I made up with them and we acknowledged the fact that our relationship is distant but that we’d be there for each-other if we ever wanted to have a talk. As per my old classmates, I still want to get close to them, but find little room to do so. The only opportunity to connect with them is either break time or through text messaging, and I cannot get myself to do either. I know my time is limited and I still lament the fact that I’d maybe never see them again after I graduate. Moving on to my classmates, I have gotten familiar and comfortable with them, I just feel like I could be included more.
That is mostly it, so far it has been the same and sometimes better in some regards. Thank you for reading.