Hi heart support family & friends.
I hope I posted this under a relatively correct header.
Okay I just want to talk about the urge to pick up “transgender traits” again.
First let me state that I have no problem with it other than I don’t see it as a productive part of my life anymore.
I am a male and have previously identified as female and for years, I was comfortable in a dress etc. Mostly at home and not going outside.
Part of me did want to continue down that road but never, mostly due to the hassle and what seemed a fight against nature. It just seemed like more work that I wanted.
Plus I wanted to remain in a relationship with my girlfriend at the time. She knew what I was like as it was openly discussed.
My family all know and have been supportive.
Anyway I feel like I’ve written all that as a defence.
The point that I want to get to is that I’ve been having the urge to do it again but I don’t know if it’s something I do out of a comfort feeling that I like.
I see it as unproductive for my life and I’m not searching for a boyfriend or to be with anyone.
It’s more something I like.
Anyway I haven’t been doing this for about four years now and just wondering to myself why I wish to do this again.
I have many religious beliefs and although I don’t have a problem with it per say. I don’t believe it’s something I should do. Plus it costs to much lol
But part of me just wants to pick it up again and feel happy in my own home.
I just don’t know what choice I want to make and I know it’s only mine to make.
So I don’t know why I’m posting. I don’t know if it’s something I want or not.
At the moment I’m “resisting” to do it again but I’m just wondering why after all these years I feel the urge again.
Sorry if this is kinda jumbled I’m just writing from my phone and can’t really proof read it.