My name is Hope. I’m 16 and I have been diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, depression, anxiety, and PTSD. So far, I have three personalities that I know of. It’s really hard to go to work and be around people because sometimes I say “we” instead of “I,” among other things. I feel like a psychopath. Some of my personalities are boys and others are girls. I think I’m gender fluid because of this but it’s not very accepted where I’m from. I feel like I have to hide everything from everyone all the time. I don’t have anyone I can talk to. For the past two years I’ve struggled on and off with alcoholism, drug abuse, and self harm. I just want to be me again, but I feel like I can’t because I have so many personalities. I don’t remember much of most days, because other people in my brain live the days out. I’m sorry this is so long by the way
Hey friend it must be really rough at a young age to not know whats going on. I highly recommend speaking to a therapist so that they can help you. I grew up seeing a therapist and at first i was scared of it i was only 10 but grew up loving going because i knew the person i was seeing cared about me and wanted to help me. you are loved friend. stay strong
Morgan HS Intern
Hey friend. This sounds so hard, especially at a young age.
We have a lot of people in the community that struggle with these things that I’m sure would be more than willing to talk to you if you want to.
if you can, a therapist that specialises in these things could be incredibly helpful to you, and maybe speaking to your doctor about medication if that’s a route you’d like to go down. Even though it’s a scary thing, it can be super helpful when used right.
I think that maybe you could try looking into ReWrite. It’s a resource that you can read in whichever identity, and can give you tools to help cope with those addiction. but, i think that should come after you’ve found and worked a little with a therapist, as I can’t imagine how hard this must be to do anything.
I’m super proud of you for opening up and being honest with us. You’re love, and you’re important.
Thank you so much for sharing what you are going though. I want you to know that if you ever need anyone to talk to we are always here for you. You are enough, you are worthy, and you are loved.