I always woke up from those sexually nightmares, sometimes I forgot about it but sometimes I can still remember about it and it is so clear in my memories.
Or I will suddenly woke up by those big fights noises
I don’t really wanna listen to it. However I can still hear it and feel it. This makes me feel useless and afraid about myself.
I can’t really relax and sleep well at home.
Also I miss the people I love