Hey!
Thank you so much for opening up and sharing your story. It takes a lot of strength and courage to talk about experiences like the ones you’ve been through, and I want you to know that you’re heard and that your story matters. I’m really sorry to hear about the abuse you’ve suffered from such a young age. What you went through was incredibly unfair and wrong, and you definitely didn’t deserve any of it. It’s heartbreaking to think that these traumatic events have followed you through different stages of your life, making you feel like you were to blame, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
Many people who have experienced similar trauma have taken similar steps to protect themselves, or even to feel protected, so please know that you’re not alone in how you’ve felt and reacted. Those feelings of self-blame are, unfortunately, all too common among survivors of abuse, but it’s essential to understand that none of this was your fault. It’s a reflection of how deeply these experiences can affect someone, and it’s something that no one should have to endure.
I’m really glad to hear that you’ve found someone who treats you well. Support, safety, and trust are HUGE steps, and it’s wonderful that you have someone supportive in your life. It makes complete sense that those past experiences still linger in your mind, sometimes making it difficult to fully embrace the happiness you deserve. Trauma has a way of sticking with us, often appearing in unexpected moments, and it’s natural to have those memories come up from time to time. Healing is a journey, and it’s okay to still have those thoughts.
Opening up to your partner about your past can feel daunting, especially when you know he hasn’t experienced anything like it himself. It’s totally understandable to worry about whether he’ll be able to relate, but being able to talk to him about what you’ve been through could be an important step in your healing process. A caring and supportive partner doesn’t have to fully understand to be there for you; they just need to listen and offer you the support you need. It might be helpful to remember that sharing your experiences doesn’t mean you have to unload everything at once. You can take it at your own pace and share what you feel comfortable with when the time feels right.
If you ever feel like you need someone who can relate to your experiences more directly, seeking out therapy or a support group could be beneficial. Connecting with others who have faced similar challenges might help you find additional comfort and strategies for dealing with the emotional scars that remain. A therapist can offer guidance and support in helping you navigate these complex feelings and work toward building even more confidence in yourself.
You’ve already shown incredible resilience by moving forward in your life and finding a partner who treats you well. Your past doesn’t define who you are, and you deserve to live a life full of love and happiness. It’s okay to take things slow and to reach out for support when you need it. You’re stronger than you realize, and by opening up here, you’ve taken a significant step toward healing.
Thank you again for sharing your story. I hope you continue to find the support and understanding you deserve as you navigate this journey.