Hello. I am not really sure where to begin so I guess I’ll just try to say what I need to. First a little back story.
This past year has been really rough for me. Earlier this year I moved out to Mississippi with a friend to try to chase my passion for doing Zumba. There were opening a herbal life shop witch I was all for and very happy for them. Well a few months after my brothers wife made a comment on my friends Facebook post that was basically trashing my friends. Well my friend though I asked her to do that and it created this rift between us and got to the point I had to leave. I ended up loosing my best friend because of my brothers stupid wife!
So after that I had the choice to go back home or go stay with family in Florida. I decided to go stay in Florida because who wouldn’t love to live there right? So I stayed with my brother at his house for awhile and then my mom moved out with me. Again after a few months of living there my brother wife started to talk shit about my mom. Well it got to the point where my mom was questioning if she is a good parent and a good person so i snapped and chewed her ass out and the worst part was my mother’s own son didn’t even say or do anything. And his ex wife before did the same thing where I never got to see my nieces and nephews and now it happened all over again I won’t be able to see my little nephew or niece grow up because my brother wife is so selfish!! I want to forgive her but how do you forgive someone for coming after your family!
So I moved back home and ever since then I have been a person I do not like but I don’t know how to change or have the want to change even though I don’t like what I’ve become. I just can’t seem to do anything right and just feel like such a disappointment especially to my parents. And last night my depression was the worst it’s ever been and it scares me. It just seems to be one bad after another and I just want it to stop.
I guess it’s all just catching up to me and I just am not sure how to handle it