While reading through HeartSupport’s new book Dwarf Planet, I’ve been able to identify two main reasons why depression maintains a grip on my life:
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I am haunted by the inevitable passage of time and the eventual death of everyone I love.
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Because of that, I’m paralyzed by the fear of misusing the time I have with those people.
Because of the death of three of my grandparents in the few years before and after I was born and how that continues to affect my family decades later, I’m terrified of how death ruins people. This played a role in the development the depression I now deal with, and is the fear I have to push through to accomplish even simple tasks.
Dwarf Planet has helped me to put a name to why depression affects me personally and given me a step towards healing from it. I want to share this with others so that we can work together to push through the fog that keeps people in the dark and without help.
I would love to hear if this helps anyone, and how this is similar to or different from your own battle with depression.
Much love,
-Amanda