There is this guy that I knew back in 2016. He treated me very well and liked me but I didn’t like him back then.
He contacted me again in 2018 and we started hanging out from February to April.
I felt comfortable around him and trusted him. I thought we were dating and had sex with him. And I asked what are we after it happened, he told me he really liked me back then in 2016 but now he just couldn’t give me an answer.
Yet, he refused to say he doesn’t like me.
So why did he used me? Was it for revenge? I told myself it’s my fault that I rejected him back then. And since things can’t work out now, I will move on instead.
Only to realized in May, when I stalked his Facebook and saw he posted his picture with his girlfriend. He already has a girlfriend when he did all that shit to me.
I became a third party just because I was dumb, I didn’t know what kind of a person he really was. I painted a picture of him in my head that doesn’t exist. (The gf doesn’t know my existence and I’m not sure if they are still tgt)
I cried so much because I felt like a fool, being deceived and used.
There were three times when I was drunk and I texted him and asked why he did that to me. He nevers reply.
I have moved on and doesn’t like him anymore. But that feeling of being lied to, deceived and used still lingers now. I’m always thinking why did it have to happen to me.
I developed phobia that every guy will be like hiim.
Right now I’m tearing as I pen down this, I’ve definitely gotten over him, but why am I crying still?
It’s just unfair that he gets to treat me this way and doesn’t feel guilty about it. I really hate him.
Thanks for reading. I’m sorry it’s just my useless ranting.