I spent 7+ years getting high everyday as a way to deal with the emotional abuse I receive every second from my parents. Even with that abuse, just a few years ago, I couldn’t leave the house with one of them by my side, the thought of being outside alone caused me so many panic attacks. Being high was the only escape I had from the abuse, i had no one to go to.
A little over a year ago I tuned into a HeartSupport stream and admitted I needed help. The guys instantly read it out and the chat went crazy tagging me with comments and I remember thinking “oh crap. I’m not reading those, I can’t ever come back to this stream” because it was the first time I’d ever told anyone. But of course… All the chat did was greet me with love and support, the same way the guys did.
After a few months of major support - I started attending 12-Step meetings, going to therapy and talking to people who could help. After multiple relapsed, I was finally ready to stop killing myself.
Not only am I getting prepared to move out of my abusive home, today marks 1 year completely free from prescription pills… A goal I had from the very start, but, honestly didn’t think I’d ever hit.
Thank you @Danjo and @Casers for reaching out after I shared in that stream. You’ve been here right from day 1 and if it weren’t for you guys loving me and pushing me, I wouldn’t be part of such an amazing community and I wouldn’t be where I am now. I am so grateful for you both and I love you both so much.
Thank you to the whole community - for being my safe place and encouraging me everyday. You’re all awesome.
I love you all