Hi,
I haven’t been on this much as unfortunately this became a trigger. When I say I’m going through something really terrifying and dark I mean I’m going through the worst. I’m so scared of life, government, technology but ultimately my mind. It is like I am not in control, someone else has took it from me because all the wrongs, lies whether big or small nothing out of this world of course however lies, someone in my head is telling me people want me dead and that I need to die, its also telling me I am a manipulator, waste of space, physcopath, why? my mind also tells me that I have a. sixth sense and I know that this is all a game. I don’t want and have ever thought thoughts are so terrifying. I pushing away all friends, going to loose my job soon enough they have been very understanding but there’s only so much people can take. through all this I’m still trying to be happy bubbly loving caring me but its so hard. I don’t know who to trust, my brain and I get a lot of visions and pictures of my head that there is no-one to help me. This is torturing me, my physical and mental health have never been so bad. I feel as low as I have ever been and my mind also tells me that I have no future. I have created this horrible horrific life for myself and I can’t deal with the shame and guilt. I’m even scared being on here if someone on here is who they say they aren’t and manipulating me out to get me, this is how severe and bad my head is RN. Thank you for taking your time to read, I would just love to find out the reasons for this head and what kind of person I am and what to do next.
