im not sure whether its me or my medication not working like it should be but ive been so irritable lately and snapping at everyone who talks to me. i feel angry over the smallest of things and cant come down from it until its an hour or more later and i start to think about it and why i was upset and then its too late by then. i dont do anything harmful because i know its just me and its not the other persons fault for my being upset but i just start to feel so angry and annoyed and like i genuinely hate whoever is talking to me. it sucks because i love my friends and i love my boyfriend but all of them are just one thin string away from upsetting me. its only been this past week or so that its been like this so i was thinking it has something to do with my medication. i messaged my psychiatrist and im waiting for a reply now, but i dont know what else it could be. my psych diagnosed me with bipolar 2 over a year ago and the medication has helped a fair bit, even though ive had to gradually increase my dosage. im on 150mg lamotrigine right now. i dont know. i just feel like such an asshole and i dont mean to be. i keep crying thinking about why i so upset with everyone but i cant find any reason to be other than the inexplicable emotions i feel in the moment. does anyone w bipolar ever go through the same thing? is it related to it or is it just something off with me?
Hi Echo,
Thanks for reaching out. I’m impressed by how proactive you are with taking steps to feel your best. I can relate to how frustrating it is to not feel like you’re showing up as you want to for the ones that you love. Sometimes when I’m feeling extra irritable it helps to be open and honest with my friends and family upfront about how I’m feeling to help them understand. We will be here to support you as you navigate this & your friends and family will love you no matter what. Mental health can be tricky, but you’ll find your way soon (:
Sending love,
Maggie
Echo, I hear you. You’re really awesome and you are already taking some healthy steps to get through this rough patch. Keep up the great work. Feel free to keep posting. Lots of folks here can help with some kind words for support. Sending some love your way!
Satty