I think Kovu wants to do Python and Unity but has to start on Godot. Though for now we are just learning. Funny story tho: It started off as me wanting to learn because I want to do a bit of world developing in a program and also bc I keep meeting people who go on long tangents about programs and I’m just sitting here like (^,◠ﻌ◠,^;)Ꮚ what language are we speaking- and feeling stupid for a good 15 mins- but then I started learning and it took an hr for my ADHD to kick in and lose interest and Kovu was watching the whole time thinking “Mhm interesting…” and while I’m bored of its peaked his interest so uh, now it’s his thing! Lmao
Ohhh hoho yea sour stuff will do the trick lol!
Oooo do you ever do the music daydream thing where you hear a song and suddenly you’re in another world? Omg I love those songs!
Ooooh! Cool, I wish I could dye my hair the color of my mindform T^T In innerworld when I’m happy or in a mood my hair glows firey magenta which is a mix or red, pink, bright purple and flecks of gold yellow lights in a mix. Kio wanted to make a meme animation out of it bc he finds it funny when he gets my attention on something and I’m just like (^◕.◕^)~> and I go glowstick mode -w- But yea their songs are great! I think my faves were Meteor Shower, Poison, This Is Home, and uhh I’ll Make Cereal! Also Telescope, also Pigeon, also Hug All Your Friends, Dysphoric, Sharpener, House Of Gold, DEVIL TOWN!!! Omg I need to get back into their music. OH FUCK I FORGOT ABOUT LEMON BOY! AHHH LEMON BOIIII omg lemon boy is a deep one for me, Stainedge made an animatic on it but seems it’s link shared only now T^T (hehehe I still have it, tho, it’s a big tw so no share for you unu).
Yea I have a huge lack of appetite too, which Niko usually comes in for bc he will make me hungry and devour everything. Make sure to eat bc health!
I mean it’s possible, just be careful with stuff like that, it really hurts me you’ve got that asshole “friend” potentially stuck in your head. I had my meds stuck in my head for 8yrs lmfao XD truly feels like a parasite… Thing is tho if a thoughtform is not developed enough yet it still has potential to be molded differently Though fr, I think you need therapy and meds for potential trauma and the dissociation. I mean when you feel more stable are you still dissociating or?
Uhhhh I’m gonna be honest I don’t really watch marvel I watched a few movies and they’re good but, they’re the type of movies I know I’m going to fall into a hyperfocus rabbit hole binge watch and I don’t want to do that unless I know for sure I have the right time on my hands XD Though it’s cool they have added a plural character! (Tbh usually movies and shows get it horribly wrong lmao for literally all types of systems lmao).
Ahhh, I’m sorry the dissociation is getting worse, if you have meds to help with it you should really take it- scratch that, now that I think about it, have you checked to see if it’s possible your meds cause dissociation at all? Or is it just stress? Just checking to be sure.
Thanks you too!
Oh yea, oh yea oof, if that’s true it’s possible you have an walk-in OCtive, as, you said you made an OC of your depression. Thooo it does sound like they were slightly just thoughts and when you gave them the form is when they decided to really infest your brain. (This is why I’m always careful of OC’s. The last OC I made became a accidental tulpa walk-in literal GOD! And well, the rest of my headmates are walk ins too just not as insane and more intentional. Kovu sometimes has an existential crisis from the fact he was born from a needle felted ppl plush I made of him one day when I was little. Like that’s all it took for him come into existence and show up all the sudden, and if I had never made it… Ehhh I don’t want to think about that. I mean shit it is crazy to think about, but yea it both fascinates and just, freaks him out. But hey he’s glad to be here and we’re glad to have him and we wouldn’t have it any other way! Uk, when I think back on Mori, I think it started out as a voice in my head, I tried not to name it but they wouldn’t stfu and eventually did by accident and well, you know the exact story for yourself lol. To sum it up, the abilities of the mind are way more powerful than ppl think, or simply, the brain is extremely moldable. Doesn’t take much for a headmate to form by accident. Glad he isn’t too developed.
Sending healing thoughts your way ^~^
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