Again playing my guitar and feeling like I suck at music. I really want to turn my solo project into a band and play in front of people. However, people hate my music and hate me lol. It really get anger think of ex friends that would always your never tired hard enough or you putting the work in. I’m perfect, I do in good week at least 5 days a week and 1 1/2 hours or 2 hours. May not push myself alway time. But I do work a job , execise, mediate and other stuff. Selfish I get jealous all the time. Seeing like beautiful people share Spotify stream how there music is play in 90 countries and I only got 27 listen. I feel it because have autism, I’m ugly and I’m dyslexic. It like if not perfect looking guy or do drugs. No give shit about my music.
Also I guy that mention in other post has cousin that in a big band ( not mention names) but ever since that beef, everyone in metal scene hates me. Can’t help feel like a victim. I know I’m not perfect, but so cocky assholes with stick up there ass and they think their coming of god. To be honest all our music will be forgotten. Once time ends, no will be there to remember it. With that in mind, maybe we need more open mind about point of view on what music good. At least don’t hate me and talk shit about what I do as a passion