Ok, I guess I’m just having to work on getting better at sharing and being honest with the community and so I’m here again.
I’ve fallen back into the cycle of self harm I was in before, feeling the urges coming on, but trying to handle them on my own instead of reaching out and just cutting anyway. This time I was literally in a HS related stream with so many people I care about and I still decided to just walk away and do it.
I found out someone I love has just completely blocked me without giving any reason and I don’t know why, the last thing I said was that I loved this person (they said they loved me as a friend, i replied) and then suddenly… the last few weeks, I’ve just been blocked. I don’t know what I do to make people hate me so much. I don’t understand. Why does everyone just walk away from me?
I don’t know anymore how to stop it this time