Oh boy, these have been though days.
I know that everything that is making me feel miserable is just a lost fight between two powerful forces living inside me.
I have too many reasons to believe that I should not be like this. I mean, there were many things that I didn’t like in that relationship, but still, heart refuses to give this significance and remembers only the good memories.
How do you make this fight even?
Hi there,
I am really sorry you are going through this, it sounds like it is been pretty intense. I understand how hard it is when your mind knows the relationship wasn’t perfect but your heart clings to the good memories, and I know this can feel exhausting.
it is okay to miss the good times while also recognizing that the relationship had some flaws, there is nothing wrong with that and there is nothing wrong with you for being conflicted with these emotions.
Feelings don’t have to be logic and healing isn’t a straight line.
take care of yourself!
sending love and support,
domenica
I truly appreciate you reaching out and sharing your story with us. This is exactly the situation i found myself in with my ex wife. We both knew that we were bad for each other, but allowed those few “good” moments to keep us together, even though we were losing ourselves. What you are feeling is perfectly normal; there isn’t anything wrong with you for wanting to remember the good times. It says to me that you are a good and genuine person. Sometimes, our hearts want to speak louder than our brains because it relies on emotions rather than logic. As hard as it is, there are times when we must love ourselves enough to realize that our heart is leading us down a dark path that is hard to come out of. In the end, you have to think about what’s best for you and your mental health, many times we won’t like the answer, but its important to be a little selfish.