It’s been a long time since I used this platform. I have a few posts here. I don’t know how to create a post in the progress section. It won’t let me.
But recently I feel like enough is enough, I don’t want to be stuck anymore. I want to live a life that makes me happy. I’ve been inactive for 2 whole years which means I haven’t been in school or working. For a while that made me feel bad because everyone is moving and I’ve been left behind, I’m 20 years old now. But I feel like I needed that inactivity to finally come to this conclusion because if I had just powered through life, I feel like it wouldn’t be very good for me.
And I cried today because I told myself I will protect and try to do things according to your best interests and what you want for yourself. I heard the very first foundation of self love is self trust and I want to start doing that. I’m feeling very vulnerable right now, feeling very exposed and open. I feel weird but I guess it’s good kind of weird. I need to open up to expose what I’ve been surpressing.
I want to make it so that even if I fail, even if I fall, I will be there to catch myself. I am worthy because I am alive. I don’t have to be extraordinary or prove my worth in any particular way.
I don’t know, for some reason I just want to put that out there.
I just want to commit to life now. Even if I’m scared, part of me is ready to keep moving.