Damn I’m still very anger at my ex friend that left me. I wish write this to her, but it would be wrong. I try my very best to forgive her, but left me behind. She doesn’t ever care, I could end my life and she wouldn’t shed a tear. Everything was a lie. I want to write to her, but she just hate me more. But want her to feel like shit. I’m so hurt by her, I wish she would feel at least sorry for me. Or at least appreciate me. But she never will……
“Dear so called friend”
You can just walk away so easily, because all you best friends. Because I’m no use to you, everything you told me was fucking lie. How was one of your close friend, how I meant something to you. I drove two hours to see you, because I though cool friend, that skates, and into same stuff as me. However, I had to develop feelings for you. I don’t why I love people that just fucking hurt me. You complain how you boyfriend or the guys you like don’t give attention. But then I gave you my love, you just play me.
To fair, I understand you did not have those feelings for me. It wrong to think this way, I fucking should be better than this. Because I have nothing against your boyfriend. Damn, I can’t believe I’m thinking, wanting to fight me. My own selfish has taken over.
You did not have to be my lover, but why did you have to end the friendship. You said, you never leave me. You reason why I think about suicide,I think you everyday fucking day. I can’t get you out my head. But I bet you don’t even remember my face. You don’t care if I end my life tonight. You don’t care that my auntie is dying a slow death. You don’t care I’m all alone on weekend nights. You don’t care how much damage you cause me. You don’t care, that my heart ache for you and don’t care if was dying on street or get end my life.
I’m going lie, if I saw you living on n the street, I would not give you a helping hand. You lost all my respect, never call you my friend. I know who you truly are, your are reminder that will never get close to people. I hope you freaking ruin your life.
( I’m sorry I had to post on here, I’m trying not do something stupid.)