This is a topic from YOUTUBE. Reply as normal, and we will post it to the user on YouTube.
Belongs to: Therapist Reacts to Mansion by NF
Ex firefighter with all of death in my life and now I’m an alcoholic and have lost all of my kids and in divorce . Life sucks then I die
Sounds like alot have happened that led you to alot right now…
Honestly i know what firefighters do because i grew up around family members that were firefighters. Mostly volunteer around here but i actually did Jr. Firefighting when i was still a teenager. Don’t know how exactly things went down with losing your kids or your divorce situation. You’re strong going through all that you’re dealing with and the alcohol is to get around to numb us temporarily but not fully it not gonna us to that place where we want to be or make us feel better about our lives. Alcohol was a thing common around the firehouse i went too so i can see the problem is not really a easy situation to deal with. But moving forward and kinda replacing those lifestyle choices would be the right thing to do in the right direction. Life may be difficult at times but you can make it through this.
Take Care & Hold Fast.
Thank you for your service. You have endured a profession that takes pure strength, courage, and selflessness. Thank you for all that you have done.
I’m sorry that you’re in such a difficult and uncertain season right now. To be around so much negativity and hardships inside and outside of your work is a lot to bear. It must be hard to find positivity when your reality feels so devoid of it.
Those things that you have endured and carry around are so heavy. You deserve time to grieve, to sit with yourself and feel peace in the midst of everything. If you want to scream, scream. If you want to cry, cry. These things hurt more when we try to bottle them up inside.
I’ve struggled with drinking during on of the harder periods in my life. I just wanted to be numb and to feel any sense of peace and confidence. The more I drank the more my gut told me I was doing myself a disservice. All my demons needed to be fought, but I kept drowning them out with my drinking. Looking back, I wish that I didn’t push things down so hard and was able to talk with my loved ones instead of pretending things were fine.
Life sucks sometimes, I’d be lying if I said it was all sunshine and rainbows. And yes, we all eventually die, but the time between then and now doesn’t have to be all pain. I believe that everyone has a reason to keep going, that everyone has one person they know would grieve them terribly if they were gone. You still have value despite all of the things that life has thrown at you to try and wear you down.
I am here for you, give yourself time and love, my friend. I believe that this darkness will not feel this dark forever <3