Before I begin, I identify as a Nonbinary/Trans Masculine person. Pronouns are He/They. I told one of my friends that I thought about going back on Testosterone again. She asked me if I could just be a masculine person instead and to really think about the permanent effects of T. That made my heart sink a little bit. The more I see people transition and seeing how happy they are after doing it… idk It just gives me this really good feeling towards Testosterone. I really feel like this is something I’m supposed to do. I know when I was on T I was a little mentally unstable but I believe that’s due to a chemical imbalance in my brain. My psychiatrist thinks that’s why I’ve been getting severely depressed and having severe intrusive thoughts. I also been told by her that I should try going to a treatment center for depression to try this one medication that i don’t take home with me and just leave at the center. she said if I go through with the center I would have to stay there for two hours while people monitor me. I have a lot to think about… I’m a little scared to be honest…
From alex07xd.: hey you do what makes you happy ,your so brave for sharing with us. Do what your heart says unless it messes with a medication condition you have.do what makes you feel right, dont let others (besides doctors) influenc your choices
It seems a lot of things are going on at the same time, this can be very tiring and scary. I am glad you decided to share with us. It looks like T might have some great effects, but you also write it made you mentally unstable before. So I am wondering if maybe getting more stable with your mental health (possibly through the treatment at the center) would get you better benefits from T. If that makes sense, I am not sure if I am expressing it in an understandable manner.
I hope your psychiatrist and/or another specialist doctor (like endocrinologist) can help you make a decision that is helping you both physically and mentally.