So why bother setting any type of bar for myself if someone else has already jumped it or, will jump it in a better way?
There’s some comfort in the idea of trying to prove to ourselves that we’re able to do something no one else did, for sure. But the real reward is to learn to own what you do while you’re doing it, because your experience will always be unique. It’s what help you learn to know yourself better, to know your limits but also your qualities, to identify what you’d like to improve and what you feel comfortable with.
For example, in social sciences such as sociology and anthropology, researchers can go interview and spend time with the same group of people, yet the results they’ll produce will be different, even if they follow the same methods. Because it will be the combination of unique circumstances, unique personalities and views - in other words, a unique context. They won’t have the same interactions, they won’t interview the same way, they won’t feel the same comfort/discomfort with those people, they won’t have the same interests and limits, etc.
Would one of the two studies be less interesting than the other because it was already studied? Of course not. The human factor plays an immense role, because we can create as many methods and techniques we want, but each human being remains unique, and that’s what’s incredibly interesting whenever we create or do something. You are an added-value to anything you do. You hold a unique story, a unique personality, your own values, beliefs, memories, struggles and skills in a way that no one else does.
So is it about the result, or is it about the process of doing it? A goal gives you a direction, but to get there you go through a whole process of learning, trying, failing, then learning again and you keep bettering yourself at what you’re doing. That process is as much important, if not more, as the goal you’re aiming.
Do you enjoy what you do? Do you take pleasure in the things that matter to you? As someone who also lack of self-confidence and tend to be perfectionist, I find that focusing on the doing rather than the accomplishment is an aspect that we can easily push away.
Because Lent starts tomorrow, I thought I should set at least one goal for the next 40 days; take time to write 1,000 words. Of course not here in this journal. But privately in a meditative manner.
Doing things for yourself can be a very interesting step! That way, you’re less likely to fall into a comparison trap. But it will be important to be fair to yourself once you reach your goal. Take your time to acknowledge how you feel during this project. Be curious! Identify your obstacles, but also how you react to it. You’ll be doing something that no one else does, because it will be a unique experience lived by a unique individual…: you. This combination will never be the same anywhere else and at any different time.
You got this!