I feel like I’m invalid. Like I don’t have a right to how I feel. I feel like my emotions are invalid. I feel like my grief is invalid. I feel like my faith is invalid. I feel like my inclusion in the church is invalid. I feel like I shouldn’t have valid friendships. I then distance myself from everything
Then I wonder why I don’t feel anything. I don’t want to be numb and apathetic.
Started thinking about this Saturday. It started with just one of the invalidations but then I realized it wasn’t just 1 occasion but deeply ingrained into how I live
Its been a lot to think about. A deep realization.