I decided yesterday to quit music, things at a open mic did not work out. ( I didn’t even get to play). The world just dose not want to hear me play. No matter how hard try, I don’t have the thick skin for it.
It feel like no matter how hard try in music, nobody like it’s. That dough bag from Panera ( from my last) was right, everyone talk shot behind my back saying that my music suck. Everyone in New England metal hated me and look me as a creep. I was different from them.
It suck , because I try to support local bands , but their merch and they think I’m a poser.
My spirt get crush so many time, I can drink all my problems away. I meant to be a loser nothing more, fuck self improve man.
I need not let the music destroy myself worth, no more will let you judge about me bring me down. I know who I am and that who will I be. I need come back to humble person I used to be. I can’t let this scene turn into a toxic person.