So its been awhile since I have been on here,and I haven’t been meaning to ignore this awesome place. August was just a really bad month, and rough to say the least. August 3rd though will always stand out though cause I got to meet Jake and Ben Sledge which was amazing cause he gave me super good advice. So did Jake and i even made new friends because of it, and things seemed okay. My ex boyfriend came at the end of August an I thought he was going to ask me to marry him cause we had almost been together for a year.
Than September came and on labor day I checked myself into inpatient treatment at the hospital cause I was extremely depressed and suicidal. I got out Sep 7th, and things seemed to be looking up but than this past week rolled around an everything just kinda of fell apart. Sunday was extremely bad cause my family made me feel like shit and got into shouting matches with my violent and abusive brother. And I’ll probably have a huge overdraft fee in my bank account…and i just feel helpless. I feel super alone and at almost 1:10 in the morning I really feel like relapsing or just ending it. Cause I feel like everything is pointless at the moment and that I’m not good enough.