I’m not sure where to start but all I know is that right now I feel really scared, anxious and lost about my future. I just graduated from college and still have to work on my thesis, also I must find a job and it turned out that I need to find a new house or apartment. It all feels like too much and it all came suddenly. God, I don’t feel like I can do this. I can’t stop thinking about all of those things and how it affects my plan for next year. I applied and was accepted for a semester abroad with a non-profit organisation that do community service and music shows and stuff. But even getting a scholarship I need to raise plenty of money and all these upcoming changes make it all more difficult.
I’m scared of not getting the money for this travel which I’ve been super excited about, and honestly, I don’t wanna move home, also I can’t believe it’s that hard to find a job of basically anything. I feel like I’m just can’t do it this time because I feel so small. And I tried to talk to my parents about how this situation makes me feel but they just tell me to calm down and I’m like “that’s what I’m trying to do!” but in the end it’s like if I can’t have a moment to be fragile and break down and whatever. I just wanted them to listen. I’m really lost and scared it makes it hard to breathe, that’s all.