I’m sorry to hear that your therapist had to step down from your sessions/case. I can imagine how not disappointing that can be. I can also understand how that could cause some hurt and uncertainty about trying to seek therapy again. Was this your first time seeking help from a therapist?
Therapy can be helpful, but unfortunately it does take some trial and error sometimes to find the therapist that is the right fit for you. And that search can be a bit daunting and discouraging at times, but many, including myself, can say that once you are able to find the therapist that works for you, it is worth it, and truly helpful. It is okay to feel these feelings because what you are feeling is valid, but I hope that you are able to continue looking for the support that you need and that you get the support that you deserve.
I would like to add, hoping this could help you feel better. If the reason the therapist had to leave was PTSD by proxy then they weren’t quitting on you per say. I’d like to believe that they are still rooting for you and wishing you well on your journey to get better. Therapists are people too and they have their own traumas and experiences and there are times where a therapist mentally can get triggered by similarities in a client’s story that reminds them of a trauma they experienced themselves. I only say this in an attempt to provide a different perspective because I want to reassure you that I don’t think it had to do with you directly.
But regardless of the reason, it took a lot of courage for you to seek help and to begin to open up to someone, so being told that you can’t continue with this therapist is disheartening. I applaud your initial efforts and your bravery for taking those steps, and I hope that despite everything, if therapy is a support that you believe you need, that you can find it within yourself to be courageous once more and try again. All the best Friend