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I am a Veteran Combat Medic with PTSD and survivors guilt. This song/video hits me very hard as I can related! Although I was able to help some, so many didn’t make it! Even though I did my best to keep my brothers and sisters alive I often times blame myself for not saving them! I can related to the ringing noise in the beginning of the video as the ringing noise has never left me! The more quiet the room is the louder it gets! It is a constant reminder! The lack of sleep, stress, sadness, nightmares, and anger I deal with is often unbearable! I feel guilty that I am still here! Many times I ask, “Why me?” Why come I am I am here? I don’t like to talk about it and I can’t believe I am typing this. Veterans and Memorial day is very hard for me! I would trade! I wish you all well!
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I was in Afghanistan and Iraq. I was not a medic, but I was special forces support. I knew a lot of good people that died in those wars.
Hang in there. I believe it is our duty to remember them, and honor this memory by leading a good life for them.
Fellow combat medic here. Everything you both said, i feel aswell. There is never a day that goes by where I don’t feel like it should have been me so my best friend could come home to his kids. This video probably hits me harder than wrong side of heaven because I watched 6 brothers get killed by an IED. I will never forget that moment. From one brother over the pond thank you both.
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Respect from France man. Keep fighting 
God bless. Been looking for a way to give back to the community after I got out. Just recently started working full time at a homeless shelter. Place has 32 beds for men in general but then additionally has 22 for veterans.
The only thing that trumps docs skills is God. Sometimes it’s their time. You did what you did. Thanks for your dedication. Nothing else can be asked of you.
Fellow veteran here man. We love you homie, we all carry those thoughts and emotions and they’re so valid.
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Disabled Veteran and former medic as well. This song gets me every time.
Thank you so much for your guys and gals service! <3
@@cornbredx I am so sorry for your losses. Prayers for your healing. 
@@rileyalexander5372 I am so very sorry for your losses. I have absolutely no idea what you’ve experienced and I pray for your healing.
@danielrupp7578 I always love seeing when a fellow brother helps out like that. Give me hope that there is still good in this world
@melaniejordan1199 and I would never want you to experience it. I think every vet and everyone still serving will agree we all have a want to protect our nation and our loved ones. Yes, it comes at a cost, but (i can only speak for myself on this part) I would much rather go through it all over again than have any of my loved ones even go through 1% of it. Don’t think I will ever fully heal from it but I’m OK with that
You did everything you could Doc, much love and God bless
I have no words…
Thank you… all of you!
@knightmaremedia7795 always find it weird saying your welcome for something I chose to do. So I’ve taken to saying “You’re worth it”
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“Worth it,” man, that’s actually an interesting way to reply…
bud… thats actually pretty heavy.
I umm. Yea… idk .its like all the sudden, I feel an urge to just be a better person…if that makes any sense…
@knightmaremedia7795 it does make sense dude. I say it that way because it also shows respect back
@rileyalexander5372 yea. I know man. Its just when you said that, I just instantly felt : “am I really worth it” and subsequently doing a quick inventory of my life and actions, I thought :
yep , I need to be a better person.
So , thank you. Yet again lol.
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