Oh @LowerLeftCabinet, I hear you. Where I live (Belgium), we’re entering a second lockdown today for a month and half. How we responded to covid is objectively a disaster too. I didn’t have any mental space anymore to care about it, but hearing that news triggers a lot of dark thoughts and I feel like I have to armor myself even more.
We’re just humans. It’s absolutely okay to have mixed feelings about this situation, also to miss some kind of freedom. It’s objectively hard to move on without knowing where we’re going. We need perspectives for the future. But… we are also able to grow stronger through resilience. We’re able to constantly adapt ourselves to new situations, even when it feels helpless.
There’s so much I wanted to do, so much I looked forward to, and it’s all gone. And I’m sick of hearing “just find other ways to keep yourself busy/interact virtually” as if I haven’t tried that.
Your projects might be postponed or cancelled, but your life is not cancelled. Yes, it’s super frustrating to feel like spiraling at home, doing the same things again and again. Maybe it’s time to make some changes in your routine, if you feel okay with it. It’s not just about keeping ourselves busy, but finding a way to create some kind of purpose through this season and despite the awful circumstances. When we try to stay busy, it’s with the idea that we put our life in parenthesis until things get back to “normal”. It’s not really about spending quality time. But when you start to set short-term goals, to create some kind of new excitment during your days, then you shift your focus on composing with what you have at the present moment. For example: it’s awesome to have access to online activities/interactions - SO needed this year for many of us. But is it the only thing? What helps you to ease your worries, to recharge when you feel emotionally drained? What helps you to have fun, to feel connected to the present moment without having to care about what’s going on in the rest of the world? Is there anything you always wanted to try (a project, a hobby, an activity) that could be still accessible during lockdowns?
Sending hugs to you.