I didn t think about this song being about depress

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I didn’t think about this song being about depression and anxiety and a cry for help… now that I heard that, I can relate to this song now… I’m gonna be honest, there is no help. For me… The Sui*ide hotline won’t help. Counseling doesn’t help. Family doesn’t help. I don’t even trust my family. I keep my thoughts inside me, and let it out when no one’s around. I’m gonna be honest, I wish there was a magic pill for me. I’ve felt like this since high school and I’m getting close to being 30. Meds help for a little bit, but the thoughts and wishes never go away. I wish it did though… :broken_heart: there’s people on the other side waiting for me…(hopefully…) and I’m waiting to be with them… I’m sorry…

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Hi there :wave:

Not alone in this and talking about is important i been through anxiety from rejection you’re not alone we all had these thoughts and have experience the unpleasantness that comes with depression and anxiety. We all wish that something would take our mind off of this struggle which is hard. What you got to do is remove the negativity and move on from this you can pull through the present of this. We are here if you need to open your feelings more and this isn’t your fault that you’re feelings this way so don’t put too much self destruction on yourself too.

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Hi, thank you for sharing your thoughts. You’re not alone in feeling alone and like there is no hope for you. I’ve struggled with mental health for multiple years and I kept on being unwell and I had no idea why or what would help me in the end. Sometimes it’s a lack of safety, sometimes it’s a lack of tools. It’s a process of discovery what works and you’ll find many ways that won’t work for you before you find the thing that does.

I’m so proud of you for not having given up on yourself. I also want to encourage you to keep going and keep looking for ways that’ll help you climb back from your depression and anxiety. It’ll eventually get better and like looking down a mountain you’ll be amazed for the journey you’ve been through to get there.

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I hear you loud and clear. I am so glad you came here to share what’s going on with you. The pain you must be going through right now sounds so unbearable. This was the first time I’d connected with this song as being about struggling with mental health and it really does make a lot of sense. To feel stuck in a prison of your own mind, unable to see any way out. I truly feel for you. I think we’ve all been there on some level. I can’t know exactly what you’re going through but it sounds terrible. It makes sense to feel hopeless in that situation. I want you to know that even though you feel alone, I’m here listening. So many people here care about you and want to hear from you. Please keep reaching out.

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Hey there,

Thank you for reaching out to us and sharing your thoughts as well as what you’re going through. It takes a lot of courage to open up and share what’s going on in your life—especially as it relates to mental health—and I want you to know that you are not alone and I am proud of you.

It sounds like you’re in the middle of a very challenging time, and I’m so sorry to hear that you’re struggling. I know what it feels like to feel helpless and lose hope for what’s ahead when life becomes overwhelming and feels like it isn’t going our way—it’s disheartening, confusing, and can be pretty isolating. I also understand the urge to keep everything that’s going on inside and not share what I’m going through with others. However, I have found through experience that keeping everything I’m going through inside has only made those things worse because the intensity of my emotions is heightened—making them even more confusing and harder to process. I know keeping everything inside seems like the only option when it feels like there’s no one you can trust or turn to for help. I want you to know that, while it may not feel like it, there are people out there (including all of us here at HeartSupport) who care about you, want the best for you, and are waiting to be there for you so they can help you. This world is a much better place with you in it. So, the next time you’re feeling like there’s no one to turn to, and you have to keep your emotions inside, please reach out. HeartSupport is here for you. Be kind to yourself :blue_heart:

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Thank you for reaching out and you are not alone in feeling this way. It is really lonely to not find help in the places you’d expect to, especially not being able to trust your family with these thoughts. It is hard to not be able to just whisk it away when you’ve tried everything. You long for the day that you can see the people that you miss again.
There was a time when I thought that I wouldn’t get better, but as I kept trying, I eventually found something that works. I have a therapist that connects with me. I have a treatment that helps me not hate myself anymore. It is a lot of work, but it is well worth the effort when you find it.
I hope that you’ll be able to continue to find what works for you.
Hold Fast. We Believe in You.

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@@HeartSupport thank you! :heart:

Hey Friend,

I’ve been listening to this song since I was like 13 years old (32 now) and never knew it was about depression.

It makes so much sense, though. This is exactly what depression is.

I remember several years ago when I was in a really dark place mentally, all I could think of was how the pain and suffering could be taken care off if I only could just take myself out. I kind of obsessed about it.

I thought that no one was there for me. I thought that no one would listen to me. I never spoke about it to my friends or my family. I always wore a mask that said to the world that I was okay. That I was fine and didn’t need help or that no one would listen. I kind of became an asshole through that time.

It ultimately culminated to a stent in a pych ward and a proceeding attempt on my own life. I had truly hit rock bottom… but that was by far the most beautiful thing to ever happen to me in my life.

Sounds contradictary, right?

Well, turns out that I did in fact have friends that cared deeply about me (they were the ones that notified my parents and facilitated the police to pick me up and take me to the hospital). I lived in a different state than my family and my friends, who couldn’t go check on me in person.

My dad made the effort to drive eight hours to make sure to see me and to see that I was okay. When I was released from the psych ward, my parents stayed with me for two weeks and then made sure to convince me to stay with them in my home town for the following month.

When I thought no one was there to hear my cries, I was completely surpised to find out that not only was there a couple people who even gave an ouce of caring…but an entire freaking community who was there to pick me up from that rock bottom place.

in the last three years or so since that happened, my life has completely transformed. I’ve now come to be an open book about my struggles and share the things that helped me through it. I realized that these kind of things impact the rich, the poor, doesn’t matter of your race, culture or skin color. We all deal with these things and for the very fact that I’ve begun to open up about it, I’ve found that people are ready and willing to listen. I’ve received so much love from people who have celebrated who I am and are just a call away from talking.

This is all to say that I’m extremely proud of you for sharing a snippet of your story here. I had to learn the hard way to open up.

We’re all in this together, you know. We have no option but to help our fellow human beings as we float through nothingness on a mote of dust around the Sun.

We hear you now and we will listen to you in the future. We got your back, my friend. Welcome to HeartSupport - A family by choice.

hold fast my friend, we are all brothers and sisters in the dark.

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You tried regular counseling, have you tried trauma counseling? They are 2 different categories, and a lot of regular counselors are too busy in the old DMI to recognize that many new mental illnesses were discovered later. Sulclde hotline reads from a script, so they aren’t really equipped to help people with traumas. EMDR helped me a lot with my rage and despair issues from complex PTSD. Not all therapies work for everyone but there are a lot of them now.

@@HeartSupport I have tried counseling but the thoughts never leave. I’ve had them since 2009/2010.