Hey Friend,
I’ve been listening to this song since I was like 13 years old (32 now) and never knew it was about depression.
It makes so much sense, though. This is exactly what depression is.
I remember several years ago when I was in a really dark place mentally, all I could think of was how the pain and suffering could be taken care off if I only could just take myself out. I kind of obsessed about it.
I thought that no one was there for me. I thought that no one would listen to me. I never spoke about it to my friends or my family. I always wore a mask that said to the world that I was okay. That I was fine and didn’t need help or that no one would listen. I kind of became an asshole through that time.
It ultimately culminated to a stent in a pych ward and a proceeding attempt on my own life. I had truly hit rock bottom… but that was by far the most beautiful thing to ever happen to me in my life.
Sounds contradictary, right?
Well, turns out that I did in fact have friends that cared deeply about me (they were the ones that notified my parents and facilitated the police to pick me up and take me to the hospital). I lived in a different state than my family and my friends, who couldn’t go check on me in person.
My dad made the effort to drive eight hours to make sure to see me and to see that I was okay. When I was released from the psych ward, my parents stayed with me for two weeks and then made sure to convince me to stay with them in my home town for the following month.
When I thought no one was there to hear my cries, I was completely surpised to find out that not only was there a couple people who even gave an ouce of caring…but an entire freaking community who was there to pick me up from that rock bottom place.
in the last three years or so since that happened, my life has completely transformed. I’ve now come to be an open book about my struggles and share the things that helped me through it. I realized that these kind of things impact the rich, the poor, doesn’t matter of your race, culture or skin color. We all deal with these things and for the very fact that I’ve begun to open up about it, I’ve found that people are ready and willing to listen. I’ve received so much love from people who have celebrated who I am and are just a call away from talking.
This is all to say that I’m extremely proud of you for sharing a snippet of your story here. I had to learn the hard way to open up.
We’re all in this together, you know. We have no option but to help our fellow human beings as we float through nothingness on a mote of dust around the Sun.
We hear you now and we will listen to you in the future. We got your back, my friend. Welcome to HeartSupport - A family by choice.
hold fast my friend, we are all brothers and sisters in the dark.