I know this is stupid, but I don’t know how to feel.
I’ve been emotionally overwhelmed and exhausted.
In the last few weeks I had so many people come up to me to tell me what to do and how to do it, without it being any of their business or right to do so. I didn’t ask for any help, but “advise” is being forced on me, constantly.
I’m worn out, and I just want to be left alone.
But I don’t want to be alone.
I’m trying to fight this inner conflict of being so hurt and done with people, but feeling so lonely and sad. I don’t want to be alone, but I’m tired of people telling me constantly what I do wrong and tell me how to do things differently that they have no knowledge about or I didn’t ask for their advice.
I also don’t know how to feel about the fact that my grandma called me beautiful today, with my unwashed hair, up in a messy bun, in sweatpants.
No one ever tells me that I’m beautiful, because it’s just not true.
Now I’m laying in my bed, crying, because it’s all too much and I don’t know what to do or feel or think.
So many people keep playing with my emotions, and I thought I knew how to stop that, apparition don’t.