I’m not gonna dive into details as it’s not my place, but I feel pretty lost. This person I care about and love so deeply is going through so much pain and anguish, and I try my best to be there and make it known that they don’t have to struggle through their problems alone and be there for them, but I feel helpless. There are some moments where we do talk and I feel like I can be a better friend, but those are few and far between. I feel like I’m a horrible excuse for a friend because despite how hard I try and communicate how much I love this person and how I’d drop everything I’m doing to be there for them, it seems to fall on deaf ears. They’re a huge part of my life and when they hurt, I hurt. We’re so close, that I wouldn’t be surprised if our hearts beat in sync with each other. We’re close, but I’ve never felt so distant…
Days will go by and I’ll barely hear from them. I’ll send messages of encouragement sparingly throughout the week because I don’t want to smother them, but the read at x:xx am/pm stares me in the face and makes me feel even more helpless. Being stuck in this limbo trying to figure out what’s going on breaks my heart. I just want to help and be there, but I get left in the dark. We share the same level of care for each other, but I can’t get it out of my head that I may be doing something wrong and it hurts my heart.
Am I doing something wrong? Am I a bad friend for what I’m doing? Do I just let this go by and continue until it passes? I’m clueless. I’m doing everything in my power but it still feels for naught. I don’t know how I can be the support that they need if I can’t even get into a conversation. I want them to succeed and grow, but most importantly I want them to heal.
How do I be a better help…?