So, I’m sorry, but I need help with this and I don’t know another place to go, so this is quite the essay.
I want to start by saying that I hate the way my emotions work. I feel like every time I feel sad I’m being dramatic, whiny, crying for attention, etc. I think that it’s a burden on everyone around me and I don’t deserve their attention. All I seem to do all day is complain, and I do the bare minimum that I have to do in order to keep surviving. Now I want to say how I feel like a horrible daughter. My mom was barely around and my dad worked extremely hard to raise me and my siblings right, but I feel useless. I think that all I do is hog up space, make a mess, burden down my siblings and my dad, and that if my parents never had me they would be happier. I’m not a good daughter and I feel like a disappointment to everyone I meet. I want to disappear. I should also say that feeling like a disappointment to the only parent who’s still around would be the worst thing for me to experience, because that means neither one wants me around.