Its been some time since you posted, but let me reassure you - I am here, others are here, we all care !!
Its a deep song and so many of us relate to the suffering and how to handle preety dark moments I have been there… that lost of sense… its true, it can be very dark place, its hard to get moving, to find answer for questions of “why?” , to really feel that support, trust from others, from ourselves. It very difficult moment, but really valid showing our human nature. Our emotions despite being difficult are part of us and it is ok to feel bad and share them.
The moment we hear our friends saying they care, they want to help - it’s not always just such easy to trust them, to really feel that support I had my very close family saying the same, but despite that i had moment when these words really didn’t meant a lot, in some sort of self talk in my head " yea, right" it wasn’t working or doing any good at the beginning. I do feel you… these are very difficult moments to get through…
What is very important is that fantastic and critical element you described - your friends. It might be hard to get really their support or maybe sometimes they cant understand us, but it is so heart warming that they are there for you. Even if it does not work yet. They want to help, this or that way - but they are there for you same as we are here. Same as I am sending you my support and sharing really valid emotions with you It suck, yes - but there are people around willing to help, hear our, listen, maybe talk.
I sending you all my positive emotions, vibes, smiles, good thoughts about all the possibilities, solutions, ideas, reasons and love that you deserve as a part of our community, Metallica fan base and human being
Matt