Thanks really @Micro.
Well there are times that I dont really feel like a good friend at all because last year( in early 2019) I was the one that started to ignoring her, I dont remember why but I still havent forgive myself for that ,even that she said that we were okay (middle 2019) but I still couldnt forgive myself, not after learning that I had make her suffer and there are times that I really feel horrible. And maybe I deserve that she was ignoring me for I dont know what reason, you know, Karma.
This days there are times when I feel like I shouldnt have said “please dont talk to me, anymore” because I fear that maybe I have hurt her and I dont want to her being bad for that. Maybe I should have said that “I need time”, even that in the last message I wrote her this: " If you dont want to talk to me anymore, fine. Good luck with everything. The thing is that I need time"
But yeah, I think that we need space at least I feel like that because even that I will forgive her, I dont know if someday I will be ready to talk to her face to face, at least for now.
And yeah, in my opinion, if we start talking or not, if we become friends or not, wont be my decision to make, now is her decision.
Sadly you are right, even if I wish with all my heart, I cant control what other are thinking or what they do and I cant know what will be their answer.
Thanks really for your answer and for reading:blush:
You are a great person.