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Belongs to: Therapist reacts to People=Shit by Slipknot
I grew up getting the crap beat out of me by my mother on a weekly basis or more, there was also a heavy verbal component to her violence. At the same time I was being sexually abused by a male neighbor, bullied and picked on at school for years. I have all the tendencies and urges of a serial killer. Hard core metal like this is one of the components I use to keep other people safe. While a big part of me wants to do all manner of bad stuff to people another part of me loves everyone and doesn’t want to hurt anyone. So I fight a war within myself every day. Will tomorrow be the day the monster wins? Who knows!
Hello friend, and welcome to HeartSupport.
WOW - your story sounds awful and I hate that hurt people hurt people - especially children by family and friends…BUT you have the power and morals to end that cycle…to let the rage out in other, healthy ways…I know this to be true. Let the lyrics and the heavy music fuel you to positive rage: against a heavy bag, or the pavement on a run, in a group therapy session, in a letter to your horrible
human of a mom, or even a shooting range. Get that shit out in a way that heals you and hurts nobody else and prove everyone wrong - you will not be a statistic - you will be a warrior for good in this life. I know you have more good in you than bad - and you have no desire to hurt anyone else - let it out my friend…get in a mosh pit at a show and get shoved around and shove back…but in a way that’s cathartic and aggressive not hateful and hurtful. Maybe someday this can be your anthem:
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Hi there,
I’m so sorry that you had to undergo such traumatic experiences, and nobody should ever go through that. You are so, so loved by everybody on the HeartSupport forum, and nobody wishes that you harm others or yourself. Please, please take care of yourself in a healthy way, and I’m glad that you’re using music as one of those methods. Music is amazing for catharsis, and you’re doing a wonderful job of using it to prevent harming other people. You’re so brave for fighting your urges and continuing on, and trust me when I say that there are so many more beautiful things waiting for you ahead. Remember, you’re strong and loved, and I’m sending all my prayers and hopes to you.
Please do not hesitate to share any more of your concerns or story, as I and other compassionate volunteers will do our best to provide support.
@@HeartSupport I have always wondered why I am not another Ted Bundy, Ed Kemper, Dennis Rader, Gary Ridgeway. I have studies the, I understand the, I know the madness. Why am I different? Why was I able to resist the demon constantly whispering it madness into my ear. Why does part of me want to be like them but another part of me hate myself for that?
@Charisma @gravitykills24
