After going to a funeral today, when I came down into my work. I got shit from my bitchy boss. Saying cleaning the teacher bathroom, kept name shit off the fucking list and it never fucking end. The never is that she said I sick tired cleaning your area. That woman is fucking asshole, I just freak the fuck and break shit and walk out.
I’m tired constantly worrying losing my job, feeling I’m worthless moron and just like no matter how hard I try it never fucking good enough.
It put into dark where I was go in and just shoot everyone. I know that terrible thing to say, but I’m tired feeling worthless to everyone, bring a burden on my family and just fighting the urge to self harm.
I don’t want to do job, but I have no other options than suicide. Fuck why do I suck at life.