Thank you. I’ll try to answer the questions, although it might be a bit hard, since I’m not really into trying out things. There is always the fear that I’ll fail, or that others are laughing at me if I’m struggling or making mistakes. That’s why I usually just didn’t try out new things in like the last 10 years of my life.
1. What have you explored so far?
Not much. When I had to choose uni a few years back I choose something where I could use my medium knowledge of Biology. I’ve studied Conservation Engineering. It’s basically a study about species, and ways of protecting them. It’s only a Bachelor and I only choose to learn it, because I didn’t really trust people, I like animals, and being outside… but unfortunately it’s a very specific field and I since I’m also introvert… I didn’t find anything I could do… I’d love to work somewhere, where I can take part in the protection of animals, plants, helping and finding new ways to do so… I’m also interested slightly in renewable energy source, and working somewhere, where I can learn more about them, and work in connection with these things… I like learning new things, but I’d love to learn something with what I can put a roof above my head for long-term too.
2. What do you do currently?
Since I had to move to a new country I had to learn the language. I managed to do in a medium level, now I’m looking for a new job. I also applied by a company, who might help me finding contacts in my field, giving me advice, etc… They are my only hope right now… But since it takes some time, I’m basically doing “grunt work” in a warehouse… I need to work you see, and I don’t feel like I’m able to do something else atm.
3.If you could do anything, what would you like to do?
As a child, I wanted to be a vet… but since I gave up learning Chemistry, and that I’m not a smart person, I eventually gave up on the whole thing… I really don’t know what I would like to do… I want to help… let it be people or animals. I’d love to have a skill that makes people or animals feel better… I guess I have a helpful personality.
4. What keeps you from that at the moment?
I guess since I’m not sure what I want… I can’t really answer that question, however the things I gave up on were the ones where I always had people who were better than me. Yes, I’ve heard that I should focus on myself whenever I do something and not on others’ success, but I could NEVER do that. I’d love to, but I can’t. Therefore I rarely had hobbies as a kid. I pay too much attention what others do/say/think about me… and I feel like a terrible person, because I can’t be happy to my close friends’ successful moments… I’m jealous of them, and it makes me feel really bad about myself.