Hey guys, it’s almost 2am.
I’ll wait for the repercussions of still being awake at a later time. Right now, I’m reminiscing heavily. I don’t know how I got started on it, and it’s probably silly, but my heart still yearns for it.
Much like Neko, I am reminded of my childhood. Specifically Dance Dance Revolution, and how much even now I adore it. Unfortunately, I know I couldn’t get a decent dance pad— even if I can afford it. My aunt would deem it childish, and get upset with me for spending that kind of money. I have a cheap soft mat, but if you’ve ever played DDR on a console, you know just how awful these things slide.
I have no one to really go to the arcade with me, which is another thing my aunt would deem childish. I always go to the casino with her, and it’s so… ‘depressing’ to see that’s how some of our money goes to. Honestly, a decent dance pad looks like a normal purchase with what sometimes goes to the casino.
I feel like my days of enjoying things that made me happy and gave me a carefree life are over. I don’t want to feel “too old” to play a game that not only makes me happy, but gives me exercise. I don’t like Just Dance nearly like I love DDR. Something about those feet tappies, the bright lights, and upbeat music that just gets stuck in your head just feels different.
I don’t want to leave my family bad financially. But at the same time, I feel like I have no strive to even have money, other than appease my family. I’d love to just have my life back, even if it is “childish”.
I’m sorry, I’m rambling about something silly again.