I have been in weekly therapy for about the last 3

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I have been in weekly therapy for about the last 3 years straight. I also had a lot of therapy when I was trying to get clean from 2009 to 2011 in various rehabs until I finally got clean. It took until a month ago to remember the abuse I suffered from my dad. He died August 11 of last year. He was diagnosed with brain cancer the end of April and 4 months later he passed. I took care of him, with the help of babysitters essentially, but I had to do everything. I was actually in the process of moving(lived on the same property but different houses) because I got tired of the verbal abuse. I was 38 at the time and moving to have peace. The cancer happened before I left, and over those months I learned to love my dad, and I think he finally appreciated me and actually told me he loved me. Remembering the physical is something my therapist and I are working on, but I dont have anger at him.I said all that to say that once you find a good therapist, dont go for a little bit, stick with it. I honestly feel like 3 years in we are just starting to get to the root of all the fear, anxiety, that near constant pit in my stomach feeling, all the feelings I tried to drown with the needle. If you have those feelings or find a therapist and stay with it And

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Hello,

Thank you for being so willing to share your story! What you’ve been through is no small feat and I want you to know how impressed I am with the steps you are taking to heal. I totally feel that it can take a while to find a good fit and rhythm in therapy and am so glad you’ve finally found that! So many could benefit from hearing this advice at https://forum.heartsupport.com/. Wishing you the best in your continued healing journey

Maggie

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Hi there, and thank you for sharing your story. You’ve been through so much, and you deserve to feel loved and supported. I’m so glad that, despite everything you went through with your dad, you’ve been able to heal from this experience and you were able to end your relationship on a high note. I’m happy that you’ve been able to get professional help. When you’ve been through something like this, you need all the support that you can get and it sounds like therapy has really benefitted you. I hope you continue to get stronger every day. Sending you all the love!

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Hey there. What an amazing testimony! Thank you so much for sharing that. I am so happy to hear you were able to gain some healing peace with your dad before he passed. We never know what kind of demons someone else is fighting even when theyre our own parents. You countering that with compassion and grace shows what a beautiful person you are as i am sure at times that was not always easy. I hope you continue on your healing journey. There will be good days in therapy and there will be days that leave you feeling exhausted and heavy but just know you are worthy of that light at the end of that tunnel. Keep going! Just dont give your therapist all the credit. It takes two to make a therapeutic relationship successful and your courage to do the inner work is worthy of praise as well. Youre doing great!

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Hello there,
thank you for sharing your journey here with us, it is clear that you have been through so much. It is incredible that you have been able to love your dad despite of all of the hurt and it is also incredible that your relationship with him found some peace before he passed, that is very admirable and you should be proud of yourself.
Therapy has been a key aspect of your healing journey and it is incredible how rescilient and committed to it you have been.
healing is a long process and you have come so far.
I wish you so much luck and good things for your journey and just know that you are not alone and you can always reach out to the forum for support.
sending love and support

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