I’ve had three different jobs in the last year that lead to massive disappointments. The first one was advertised to me as full time being at 21 hours a week. I took the job because I’m bipolar and the work I do is extremely physical….i thought this seemed wonderful…I even told the owner that I’m glad that someone realizes how physically taxing the job is and he agreed. However, when I started, he stated he really wants me to work 40 hours a week…I later told him why I took this job and he wouldn’t let me drop to part time. When I told him I’m bipolar and it’s hard for me to work 40 hours, he said “we all have stress, I’m planning a wedding”. He didn’t really care…I eventually left.
The second job I had I absolutely adored. It was part time and I also worked at it while working for the previous job above. Problems arose when my boss wanted me to be there more for free…training wasn’t paid…and he was also controlling when it came to what I did outside of work and what events i clicked “interested in” on Facebook…I would understand if I was clicking on inappropriate things and people saw it but I wasn’t.
I didn’t want to quit but everyone kept telling me that I’m getting ran over.
They have a non compete agreement that lasts five years after I quit.
Third job…I was really excited to start at. They were impressed with my skills but their program wasn’t developed well and I hardly got any hours…I took the train to work to show up for an hour and left. When I asked how I can be proactive, they didn’t give me an answer. When I asked about marketing, they said they didn’t want to come off as people who pressed sales. So I left because it was a waste of time.
I feel so disappointed and frustrated. I work a bit for myself so I have a little income but I do want to work with others. I’m trying to force myself to job hunt but I’m just down. Everything feels like a dead end lately. The non compete agreement from the second job is limiting my search. I don’t feel inspired. I’m embarassed that I ran through three jobs in a span of less than two years. I learned a lot from them so I’m grateful as they have built experience into my career path. But for the first time since pandemic, I’m barely working.
I feel like a loser. I feel like I failed. I reached out to a couple places to see if they are hiring but so far I heard nothing.
Earlier this year I felt so proud of everything I was achieving. I’m trying to push through as I know life has its bumps. But I feel my depression heightened and it’s difficult to get anything done