@HeartSupport
Hi there Micro.
I currently do not have the mental capacities to remember all of what you said and remember it.
I have brain damage due mostly to 28 years of extreme sports and 10 years of motorcycle riding.
I’ ve had more concussions than the average boxer or NFL player.
I’ ll try my best.
Thank you for everything you’ ve said.
It baffles me that ‘random’ strangers online that choose to show me kindness
show me more love and give me more affection than I have ever received from family, partners and friends in real live.
I try really hard and I am not capable of giving up.
I am a fighter. A warrior. Literally. I’ m a military veteran. Armored infantry. 2003-2004.
But also a little child.
A very hurt, traumatized and lonely adult.
A cat, I display cat like behavior.
And I have a ‘dark passenger.’
I don’ t know if i’ m a good person.
But I do know I seek love and affection and want a better, just and kind world.
Your words really hit me like a ton of bricks.
(I once literally hit that after highsiding off of my first bike.)
Thank you for the love and kindness.
You have never met me.
Maybe my profile pic shows you something, or sends a message.
That’ s a wig by the way.
I do feel shamed. And misunderstood.
And I am mocked and ridicilized on a daily basis.
But not by everyone.
Some people IRL show me love and kindness as well as people like you, online.
That keeps me going.
I just want connections. A shared smile.
Some politeness and sweetness.
Hopefully some day I will find some form of happiness. Ideally with someone else.
And i equally hope that you can get a better, happier and healthier life.
You sound really wounded.
I have no idea what happened to you but it feels dark. I think I want to know.
So I can maybe help you as you are helping me.
You sound amazing and the fact you CHOSE to reach out tells me a lot.
Again, I do not know you and will never meet you. Sadly?
But I understand your message, I will remember it and I shall let it sink In and anchor in my ‘soul’.
Thank you so much.
People like you make me live another day.
To be honest. The local police had to talk me off a bridge two weeks ago. Two months ago the federal road police picked me up because I was hitchhiking to Ukraine along the highway.
But they know me and I have my disabilities registered at the emergency response dispatch. So they treat me like a child every time and are really sweet.
Last time a single female officer showed up and talked to me really kindly. The bridge incident.
Then she took me to the ambulance which took me to the emergency room in the next town as to my request.
I can’t complain.
So many good people treat me right and help me.
Again thank you for your kindness.
I feel like I owe you.
If there is anything I can do for you, i’ m here.
Love, Erika