I am overweight too. I also have PCOS which makes it hard on my body at times to lose and keep off the weight. I’ve battled weight issues ever since I was a little girl. So I understand the stress, the pain, insecurity, the hurt and feeling like everyone is judging and looking down on you.
For a long time I would eat my feelings. Due to all of my anxiety and depression issues and my agoraphobia…getting out in public has always been hard on me. Eating things that felt like comfort was a frequent go to for me. It took me many years to take a hold of my health and start fighting.
Some things I helped myself do where I struggled. Water has always been hard for me. I can’t drink it if it has the wrong texture, warmth or taste. Weird I know. But I can tell. so I started putting ice and lemon juice in my water! This helped me drink my water more. There are also water flavorings out there that you can put in your water to make it taste better. I also drink a lot of seltzer and sparkling water. As it doesn’t have sugar in it. It can be bland and takes getting used to. But I started drinking more of that and cut out soda.
I also cut back on caffeine. I love my coffee. But I found it’s more for the flavor. So I still get the coffee I like but I get decaf (FYI decaf still has small amounts of caffeine. Just significantly less)
I stopped eating out. When I do, I try to look at the healthier sides of the menu. And when getting salads I always take the dressing on the side. Dressing actually packs a lot of calories!
I try to find healthy alternatives for the things I enjoy and try my best to get those things instead.
My biggest issue isn’t trying not to buy stuff. I’m pretty okay these days at telling myself NOT to buy junk. It’s when it’s in the house that I struggle not eating it all. So I never buy a lot of sweets or junk stuff. And try to buy single or small servings at a time.
I know how hard it is to make new changes and adjustments. I know how hard it is to make a life style change. And I know how hard it is to do it alone and very especially if you have an environment that doesn’t help. I’ve been there.
It does take patience. But sometimes you don’t even have to take time out of your schedule to improve on things. Sometimes it’s as simple as changing things around a little.
I don’t do well with exercising out of my house because it’s so humid where I live, I have performance anxiety and I struggle being in public. So i don’t always get all of the exercise I probably should. But if there is even one person you trust that you can hang with and walk around a mall with…that’s something.
I’d like to get a treadmill. But it’s been hard finding one.
Anyway. You are worth so much more than I know you feel right now. You are important. You matter. I know that being overweight really weighs heavy on us. I’ve been living that stress most of my life.
Small goals and one day at a time. It’s never too late to make even the smallest and most simple changes. And don’t be afraid to reach out for help. From a friend, from a family member, a support group online or offline, a therapist.
Change is always hard. But my friend, I know we are strangers but you are so loved and I care about you.
I hope that you are able to find the strength and courage to find a way that works for you. That you are able to learn to love yourself inside and out. That you are able to know your worth. You don’t have to go at this alone. But I know how isolating it is.
I see you. I hear you.