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I relate to this strongly. I have severe trust and abandonment issues. It ruins relationships, it locks me inside my house, it shapes how I treat myself. The defense mechanism I have to it is to depersonalize from myself. Even if there is love out there for me, I can’t feel it, as I can never be certain if I am leaving myself open to be abandoned again.